I’ve been gone for awhile, haven’t I? I got really sick, is the thing; I had mono and tonsillitis! Yuck, I know. During that time I went through a hard time both physically and emotionally. I became severely depressed. I felt like no matter what I did, I just couldn’t get out of bed or leave the house. Maybe the sun was too bright to match my mood, or I felt lost when I stepped outside, like I had nowhere to be, no one to meet. I’ve also had issues with my dating life, which actually doesn’t exist right now. Or ever, that is. For a long time this has made me sad and left out. After all, all my best friends have been in serious relationships, but I haven’t. Seeing this made me just…upset. But it’s 2015 and I’m facing the new year with some new perspectives.
I know as 20-somethings, or just humans in general, we face some dark places within ourselves we never wanted to face. Sometimes, though, it’s necessary to realize we don’t want to look at that for the rest of our lives. I know I sure don’t.
I think 2015 is going to be the best yet, and in some ways it has to be because nothing else exists! 2014 and before is all a memory, and whatever lies ahead has yet to happen. I’m going to try my best to make each day count because if I want to find satisfaction, I have to do it in the moment that exists now! I hope, if you’re reading this, you’re okay and healthy and you’re on a path to loving yourself and your life. I’m going to attach a song that has helped me to cry out the sadness! 🙂
“Be happy for this moment. This moment is your life.” -Omar Khayyam